After reading my last blog, I think a few readers think I have a drinking problem! But just because I've downloaded a motivational Sober Time app on my phone doesn't mean I'm an alcoholic. I also have a period tracker app but no period - hahaha sob.
That's partly the reason why I've stopped drinking completely. Dr Google says alcohol could affect your cycle even if you drink within the limits. It increases levels of estrogen and testosterone apparently. I don't really know what any of this means but I'm going through a phase of doing whatever Dr Google suggests.
Dr Google: Drink parsley tea!
Dr Google: Try ginger tea first thing in the morning!
Dr Google: herbsbherbsherbsherbsherbs
I googled the nearest herb shop and headed straight over. The woman sold me some evil tasting mixture for €12 and told me it would sort me out.
Dr Google: Do exercise (But not too much)
I went running a few times.
Dr Google: Give up alcohol
Giving up alcohol is the only thing I've done which has had any affect on my body. I've started getting mild headaches!
Could it possibly be withdrawals? It seems a little extreme to me. I used to drink a couple of beers or wine in the week, perhaps share a bottle on the weekend. I haven't had so much as a droplet of wine for almost two weeks
The positive affects of giving up alcohol have been the following:
1) I'm waking up earlier and getting out of bed more easily. I've been able to stick to a routine of yoga, meditation and morning pages every day. I even found myself eagerly performing this ritual on a Sunday morning at 8.30am.
2) I haven't experienced any anxiety... although it might be too early to say I won't in the future!
3) I'm feeling more clear headed and assertive. Assertive about my writing career, specifically.
I've suddenly realised that it's time to take control.
Simply put, if my book doesn't land a traditional publisher in the next month, I shouldn't delay any longer. I will set about doing it myself. Properly of course. With an editor and book cover designer and the whole shebang.
I woke up at 4am this morning, wide awake, my head buzzing with ideas. I've been following self-publishing podcasts for years and have learnt so much. I know it's not an easy option, but I don't want to depend on other people for my success, so if needs be, I'll muster the money and double my efforts
It might not come to that. But if it does, I'll be ready for the challenge, and if I keep this up, with a very clear head to boot.